Thinking about how I seem to be less willing these days to do things that
mother doesn't want to do, that are necessary.
I mean I moved her here didn't I ?
I didn't have any fear at all, just whisked her away and got rid of her stuff.
She seemed less 'with it' then... ?
Now I think of moving her to a memory care place and all I feel is fear.
Guess it is because of turning her care over to strangers.
People who wont understand that it isnt the illness if she shows her teeth
and 'growls' lol - she has always shown dislike that way.
Or how she is easily swayed by men.
I swing hourly from wanting desperately to wash my hands of her
to being extremely protective.
Meanwhile my life is a mess.
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