Tday

Tomorrow I am having a church group deliver a meal for mother.
It will come here and I will take it over ..
I really do not know how long I am going to be able to get
away for to go to friend's home for T-day dinner.
Probably i will go over, come back, give mom hers, return to friends.
She will be pretty "buggy" stuck inside alone :(
I hope she doesn't get into trouble.
she starts to not think well and get really screwed up.
this causes anxiety leading to fear.
None of my friends/acquaintances, who care for
their loved ones with alzheimer disease, can leave them alone...
I am only able to for a couple hours,
and even then my neighbors say
she stands in the open doorway :(
UPDATE
my sister is saying this morning she will come over :O
*faints*

yipes

After I got mothers breakfast-
 i was away at the grocery store, my mother's neighbor's
sink backed up into my mother's tub.
Industrial drain chemicals, garbage, and brown water filled her tub.
I arrived to find this mess with mother trying to
rinse off her hand.....
I soon realized, after calling for maintenance, that she had
put her hand into the caustic water !!!
WTH!!
i had her put her hand under running water for quite a while.
Removed her ring and put analgesic antibiotic on it
with a light gauze . She has no idea what when why.
So far no blistering and redness has gone way down.
my other neighbor just informed me that while i was gone
mother was standing in her doorway wondering where i was.
Here i remove all chemicals and dangerous items from
her place and trouble comes up her drain- ugh.

Ninja Caregiving

Covert removal of junk and things that cause confusion
 or danger has been going on. My bf and I whipped up
a plan where I would put items into a drawer and he
would go in after i left with mother on a walk and take them
to be gone through.
I have to go through every page of papers and envelope
for hidden old photos etc.
Only one thing,
now what do i do with this pile of stuff at my place!

Stressed Out

Yesterday's doctor visit with mother was a tiny hell.
Stuck in the little room for 45 min with a person getting into
everything , all those racks of notepads, exam gloves, alcohol pads.
Her saying the dr had gone to lunch, open the door, lets go home,
the gown is hers, where's my (keys,glasses,purse)
I had to physically stand in front of items and she would push against
me. I even, for the first time, told her to knock it off.
 The dr had to sneak out the gown.
Needless to say, not much examining happened.
She was so adamant on leaving , that i didnt even get to
schedule another appointment  because I was blocking her from
going out the front door.
This was day three(?) of her acting stuborn/insistent and snitty.
Changes are coming
and knowing this causes me fear.

Mornings

Each morning lately I find mother either still in bed asleep,
or wandering aimlessly around not knowing what to do
with herself.
I turn on the lights, plug in the tv, and get her cereal with banana.
The other day she called me not knowing where she was
and thinking "everyone is gone". It was an hour earlier than
i usually go over.
The time change is always a pain in the ass with meals...
we are hungry an hour "early" , tired an hour early, have to walk
earlier because the sun is going down and she is ready to go
back inside an hour earlier.

Took a tour last week of the place she is on the list to live.
It was an amazing place.....