Feb 24, 2021

Sterile Visit

 I went to see mom yesterday.
I felt like i was walking into an infectious disease laboratory.
First i was greeted by a high velocity air blast.
A table containing small paper bags in separate boxes
Take first bag and remove K95 mask
Put empty bag in next box
Plastic face shield over my head- blurry vision
Alcohol gel 
wash hands
take my Own temp in my ear
return forms signed and dated of 
14 days temperatures taken
swear i have not left country or gone anywhere prior to coming
permission to have covid test 
alcohol gel
wash hands
covid test in another plastic lined room
alcohol gel
wash hands
Talk about anxiety causing ! I almost cried.
They rolled mom out and i immediately knew this was a
mistake.
They had put an K95 mask over her face and she couldnt see and
she was pulling it off. Finally got it off and staff freaked out
putting on rubber gloves and struggling with her to replace it.
They got a smaller mask, new rubber gloves, and put that on her.
She sat there miserable unable to see with the mask pushing her face up.
There was a plexiglass screen between us and a large table
I couldnt see through the reflective faceshield and with my mask on 
she wasnt even aware of me. 
They put headphones on her and gave me a microphone.
I spoke to her and she "meow meow meow'd" back 
i meow'd to her and said my name - her meowing at me 
let me know she recognized my voice....
I played Beachboys for her and spoke about nothing
From now on it will be video calls only
not going to torture her like that again.









Feb 4, 2021

Still Here

 My mom got both of the Covid vaccines.
They say she is still doing well with 'off ' days and chatty days.
She is on pureed food only except breakfast items like pancakes ect.
Since she is under 100lb now they are giving her a protein icecream
as a supplement along with her yoghurt shakes.
I still facetime with her and it breaks my heart 
but the world is going through the same thing as I.

here she is, trying to keep her eyes open