Difficult Season

I never thought this part would be so hard.
holiday season is always difficult for me but Man this is hard.

tried to do something christmassy with mom this week..
I played her little snoopy music toy for her
and tried to do christmas cards with her- but she was just too distracted
to focus for less than a minute.
Even brought her old radio she sang one song and then back
to stressing about who am i where am i and leaving the room.
I didnt press anything, just hugs and giggles...

I am doing some hobbies and enjoying that, no i dont hang around
obsessing about the losses .. just sometimes like today
it strikes suddenly.