First Thanksgiving

This will be the first Thanksgiving in many years without my mom.
Last week I was elated to be able to go to friends without a care,
but this week I am having a hard time...
I know she will not know this time from any other,
she was already like that before she went into the memory care place.
So, it isnt about her... it is those things and times I read about that are
called incremental losses, anticipatory grief.
I am having this for both parents at the same time.

http://americanhospice.org/caregiving/alzheimers-disease-and-grieving-caregivers/

here she is coloring outdoors october 2013 in the cold, I was a tough caregiver LoL!