I wish I could have a couple days when my phone didn't ring.
Both of them call me daily. Yes I hear you readers who have
lost your parents say I should be thankful...
But it is a burden to me.
Having them so intimately in my life makes it impossible for me to move ahead. My father constantly talks about the past, which makes me think about the past- something that I had finally dealt with and healed...and then I get dragged back there over & over. My mother on the other hand wants to be told about the past, that she has totally forgotten.
Neither of them have any idea about the pain, no idea that their children are messed up because of them. I am not sure what 'past' they speak of... Certainly not the one I know.
I'm done with all that pain-
I want my own life -
I want to be with my love.
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