Visited Dad

After preparing myself Once AGAIN for my fathers death,
going through the thoughts of what I would do afterwards and settling with
"Ok I'll be fine!"
I went to see him and dammit ,

I love him.

....shit....
 it would be so much easier to not see someone and then they die
and you have kept your distance so it doesnt hurt that much.
haha
what a crock of shit.

So, since my sister who is supposed to be his advocate has not done anything,
I brought over his hearing aids and a bottle of wine.
Wine?! Yep. They can dole out 4 ounces of Merlot like they would a medication.
They even keep it in the medicine closet.
The nurse said they had tried to contact sister about this to no avail.
It is a treat he talks about as much as chocolate.
 I also am going to make sure they get that man down to the candy
machine for chocolate.
The home he is at is astoundingly better than his last one-
there is Zero smell.
Oh, and I found out that they had sent him to the hospital because they saw blood
on his cath. and bloodwork found white cells. This is a far cry from the other
place that let him get so sick he was delusional wandering the halls and they
still didnt send him to hospital.
I saw his urine bag and this was the first time I saw it not be red inside.
Much healthier!

As far as mom, they had been giving her a quarter pill twice a day...
I will find out if they are still doing it three times now or not.