She Pinched Me

Mom was fine until a little while after she was given her meds.
Then she started doing weird things like lining up
her ziti in rows instead of eating it like she was.
Then after a couple bites of blueberry pie
she insisted  upon mixing it with her pasta and sauce.
I tried to pull the plate back and ohhh she pinched my arm
so hard and held on.
 I caressed her hand and spoke softly to her till she released
me.
I told her I Love You in her ear...
and she replied angrily "You hate yourself!"

I left her to mix the meal into a black mess
gathered my things and said goodbye.
I cant take it.

Unfortunately this episode triggered me pretty hard.
Self-loathing has been a battle since i was a toddler
brought up in a house of anger and resentment.