wah

Mom has been very busy "shopping" in everyones rooms
and falling asleep in various beds when the need arises.
Really, if you think about it , she doesnt know where her bed is.
Even when she fell she was trying to get back up on her own to keep on moving.

I had a nice visit yesterday... I found a local news paper and she
was "reading" it outloud to me. Gibberish, but she used to love the paper
and i dont mind.
She ate all her lunch of mac and cheese with a side of veg. I gave her three
cups of juice with one mixed with the yogurt drink.
Lots of smootches and head/ back rubs.
chocolate and a cookie.
It was all fine till I got my coat and was leaving....
"Where are you Going ??" she choked and started to cry.......
she wiped a tear from her eye.....
( my heart ripped from my chest)

I replied  I'm going shopping I'll be back .








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fuck.
just fuck.